I find it so hard to finish anything because I want it to be best but my best isn’t good enough. I’m clamoring around this world of talented, beautiful people and I am nothing.
There was a way you pushed “I love you” out of your mouth that seemed so carefully and indescribably planned in that head of yours that I could barely utter it back. The gravity of your words was so apparent even the stars could see them burning brightly all the way from space.
I couldn’t translate why it was you in words, so it bloomed in my art. Across my canvases, and within lined notebooks bound with the taste of your silence in my mouth. The colours of your laugh mixed into the oils on the stained palette so I painted, and wrote, and day dreamt until it started all over again the next day.
Sometimes I don’t know what’s sadder, the fact that you’re gone, or the fact that I can no longer remember the sound of your voice.
You are a very small, yet miraculously intrinsic part of this universe. Keep your mind open and your self humble, but stay skeptical and grounded. Don’t be afraid to admit what you don’t know, and be brave enough to never stop questioning anything and everything. If you focus on your self, and realize you have the ability to learn something new every day until the end of your time, then you realize that you have the daily opportunity to make yourself an improved version of the person you were yesterday. You have the daily privilege of life, the opportunity to expand your mind, and ultimately your reality. So rejoice in your own infinite possibilities, but never be too proud to admit your own ignorance, because it is in the absence of knowledge, experience, and experimentation that you can grow, flourish, and learn. If you’re struggling, keep going, it is a sign of growth. Stay strong, keep experimenting, expanding, and, above all, stay curious.
So I’m adding yet another project to my life, sometimes I think my subconscious isn’t happy until I’m always working on one thing or another with no down-time. I figured since I need to get my book writing started anyway, NANOWRIMO would be the perfect opportunity to encourage me to stay focused & get those long-term writing juices flowing.
To be clear, I do know what I’m writing about, the next step is to research, commit, and actually do it. But since it’ll be my first time participating in NANOWRIMO, I would be immensely grateful to anyone that’s participated before if they could offer any advice or tips?
Q:What the balls is this? Your work is amazing! I just... I can't... words. I have followed you on my personal blog, but I'd appreciate it if you'd look at my writing blog, star-spun-sky. I'm trying to connect to other writers. Please and thank you and have a nice day!
Oh, wow. Thank you so much, darling, I greatly appreciate your kind feedback! I did check out your writing blog, and it is quite lovely in my opinion, so I gave it a follow. Keep up the good work! I don’t have too much up here currently, compared to my endless notebooks and innumerous files of writing on my harddrives, but it’s good to hear that someone likes it personally. [:
Unlike my other blogs, this is a baby and is still building up a steady following, as well as filling up on content, obviously, but just in case some of my readers see this, hopefully they’ll feel free to head on over to your writing blog, star-spun-sky, & check it out for themselves. Hope all is well with you, Lissa, and thanks again for this lovely message. Keep up the writing, & if you ever need anyone to bounce ideas off of, my ask is always open!